...I think the problem is that I don't improve with practice, if anything I get worse. I make an attempt at writing. The reviews are mostly unfavorable. So I try again, double the hours I pour into a work, more sources, more advice, refer to other works, leave it, come back, and when I finally finish... the reviews are predominantly unfavorable. What should I take from this? I mean other than the fact that my creative process is inherently flawed.
And what's sad is that I've had to lower the bar for myself. I'm not as good as other people. I understand this. I accept this. I'll never write as well as such-and-such or draw as well as whats-he